Tree Life Initiation Harbin Hot Springs, California 2010
My soul has been craving a sweat lodge Yet somehow the universe Was blocking me From that sacred space I honor the blocks Yet still keep reaching my body Towards the possibility Of hot sacred space
Arrive at the last lodge of the season At Harbin To find that it is full Again I am to sit out I surrender
There is a reason It will clarify
I watch everyone enter lodge As I sit outside in the sunshine
After the first round Several people exit I lean my forehead into earth As I enter in To sit next to one of my soul brothers
Hot grand-father rocks Home
Last round pushes me into new Spaces of heat I want to lie down But feel spirit wants me to sit So I sit as air around me melts away Breath
Just as I feel I can’t live through another Moment All eases As I slip into a new space Of endurance
All this training Is about building endurance Is about pushing through all That one believes is
I feel my head space fill with heat I feel my heart space split slightly Reminding me of one of the grand-father rocks That entered lodge in the shape of a heart Cracked with orange glow coming from within
Another song More heat Heat intensifies If only I could lie my head on the earth Yet I feel spirit wants me to sit And I feel I want myself to sit So I sit
And feel heat slip deeper Into spaces within me I begin to boil within
My breaths feel shorter Wild grandmother priestess Pours more water onto the rocks I feel the moistness wrap around The base of my spine
Earth calls me Yet I sit in the fire
I sit through fire I become fire
We finish with Amazing Grace I envision the man who wrote the song Once a slave-trader Who got caught in the storm of a life-time With a load of slaves chained up in the bowels of his boat As enormous waves flung the ship in Every direction As they all looked into the eyes of death Songs arose out of the bowels of the ship
The slave-trading captain Fighting for his life in the wild ocean Felt the power of slave song Rise into his soul Instead of screaming in fear The slaves united in soul Pouring their life juice into sound As waves pounded them The captain swore into the dark night That if they survive He will free them all
They did all survive He turned the ship around Freed them And freed himself Pouring his life juice Into writing Amazing Grace
In the fire of lodge I sing Amazing Grace Sending my deepest gratitude To the grandfather rocks Who are giving up their life essence
For the first time in lodge I’m able to chat with the rocks I’m able to chat with Source I’m able to chat with White Buffalo Calf Woman I’m able to share my deep gratitude For this sacred space That has contributed to my Awakening
A-ho
Door opens to sunshine I walk outside feeling energy surge Through me I squat down to the earth several times Close to passing out And then I go down onto my knees
Energy surges through me My entire body shakes with it I think that I’m having my first Seizure Yet I’m certain that one doesn’t have clear thoughts During a seizure My entire body shakes As if dying Kundalini energy swirls upwards
My hearing dims My body weakens
Although there are many people around No one approaches me to help As is my process I make my way alone through it
I rise from the earth and Unsteadily walk towards a large tree With wet grass spread below it I lie down on earth
I feel earth energy enter my body From below I feel earth energy flow into me Everything tingles Everything vibrates
I become One with the earth
Branches of the tall tree Goddess Reach down all around me I feel cool moistness of earth below me And I am held in tree arms I am held I am fed I am bathed in sacred light
Words download into me Images download into me I float in sacred space
One with the essence Of all life
When I stand My goddess necklace breaks I knew it would break in a sacred moment And she does
I stand in deep gratitude Beneath tree goddess On our earth
Later when I walk alone Through the forest trail My hearing has dimmed So that I feel sunk in deep within
“What is happening?” I ask Source “Am I going to be OK?” I don’t feel myself here fully I’m not sure where I am
“Everything will be fine,” says Source “Right now, you’re walking mostly in Spirit World You’re more with us Than on this forest trail Where your physical body moves.”
I take that in I continue to walk slowly Each footstep echoes deep within me I feel each cell of my body connecting With earth below And feel the echo Through my dimmed hearing
I look around at the beautiful forest I look down at my wet body Sweat-soaked sanguine turtle wrap Covering my naked flesh I walk slowly Feeling alive In this new light body That I come into More Each day.
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